>:: public service announcement ::<

arrogance is only attractive if you have the charisma to back up or the physical depth to entice someone into your arrogance...it is okay to think you're the shit but let's not fool ourselves this is an OUTWARD appearance emotion...at least most of it is and i'm starting to wonder where you cross the line between confidence and arrogance?

i have the tendency to bend the rules a little with the way i think and i do have the mentality of if there is something out there that i want and i want it bad enough i WILL get it. plain and simple really....but i'm not incessantly arrogant...i just know what I can do and will get things accomplished....that being typed, if my natural human nature bothers you, then perhaps you need not spend so much time paying attention to ME and focus on your mirror image.

this has been a public service announcement brought to you in part by the good folks at PhreeThought Entertainment.

carry on.

Touched(Inspired by the book "Twilight")

i picture my fingertips...tracing the outline of your cheek bones
grazing the fine hair strands of your arm...raising sensations inside your chest
the prickly pin feeling...when your heart rate intensifies...
i want to have that effect on you....sliding nail prints across your eyelids lightly...
my breath tracing the nape of your neck in an effort to remain controlled...

i picture the small of your back against the groove of my right palm...only allowed the permissible
act of relishing in the rush from exchanging energy....between two souls
i imagine my lips against the accent point of your collar bone and throat...caressing your ecstasy carefully...just to feel the bristle of your skin tone brushing against my pleasure seekers...

i see my nose tracing your abdomen....becoming intoxicated by your body's natural scent mixed with Dove and lemongrass...
i see the arch in your back maintaining composure because it is a promise to not take it further...but as i....use teeth....to bite the zipper of your pants, i can tell...you like....to be....touched.

COPYRIGHT 2009 PHREETHOUGHT ENTERTAINMENT

:: sweat glands ::

it is interesting to note.......that months after i told everyone to stop panicking behind the economy my various stocks went UP. hehe. i just wanted to point that out...while they're up because we know it fluctuates. I hope more people are starting to invest now...there are some really good companies out there at cheap prices...i've been purchasing mine one paycheck at a time because i seriously want to see my return on the bail outs funded by my tax dollars...therefore, "i'mma" go get it! Because i still don't trust our government...especially if they continue to move in the method of giving the "Federal" Reserve TOO much power with these companies. I'm not liking that. At all. And "we" are paying attention to "you".

I've been exercising like a mad woman over the last two weeks...partly because I'd slipped into this routine of eating food late at night after work...NOT a good look....so now I've decided to work out twice a day...which for some people may be normal if you're in good shape but for me it's NECESSARY because i don't feel like one 45 minute session per day does my body any good....it's not like I'm trying lose weight fast...it's just clear to me that my metabolism is not as fast as it once was when i was an active yute. When i think about it more, my goal isn't to lose weight but to maintain an active and healthy life....not lifestyle...there is a difference and if i have to tell you what it is, why are you stalking my blog? =)

My personal life is okay. I don't post much about it in this blog dear stans because this one is for shits and giggles and i've given too many people access here purposely so they wouldn't have access to the OTHER blog. don't ask. i'm not telling you what it is lol.

carry on.

>:: are you attention...again? ::<

the world is all OVER the place right. AIG showing their ass and then trying to justify it. Congress' infighting...governor's refusing money to enhance their own political aspiration....hold up let me speak on that last part.

To the governors of various states that are refusing the money given to help your constituents out: you are as stupid as the people that elected you and if they elect you again for ANY office, they are even MORE stupid. i would never support someone who turned their back on me only because they wanted to further their political agenda. Meanwhile i'm homeless and hungry as ever. No. You are the weakest link. Goodbye.

Again, people need to chill the fukk out with all of this nonsense about how much money Obama is spending. People for the last and final time, it didn't take us 3 months to get into this economical hell, it won't take us that amount of time to get out. If you've ever owned a business or studied the blueprint of people that own them, you'll know that you have to spend money to make money. that is no different now as we are in economical HELL and sitting back twiddling thumbs is NOT going to resolve the issue. Please warn yourself and overstand that this is going to be a lifetime commitment and it has happened before(recessions that is) and we WILL get back on track..as long as we don't let these criminals that are playing russian roulette continue to do so.

as you all were.

>:: unlucky fukkin 13 ( the expletive filled entry of pissivity) ::<

For the most part, i keep my mouth shut when it comes to matters swirling the blogsphere....i ignore it and if need be, comment on it at my leisure and discretion. I must speak now because this shit is hitting too close to home.

TMZ...you need your ass beat. Period. I can't fathom what was supposed to be gained by posting that pic of Rhianna...and I'm not even a Rhianna stan...but i am a WOMAN...and this shit was insensitive and irresponsible on your part...i don't care if your cornerstone of existence is the vociferous shock value of "oh celebs are people too", that was just...low. On top of this, i can't help but think that you THIRSTY mofo's are also to blame...if you wouldn't pay attention to all these people out to get come up off the back of someone's personal pain, maybe these sites wouldn't exist. Be that as they may, they do...and some person with a moral fiber should've said "THIS is fukked up. We CAN'T." Seriously TMZ. FUCK you.

Speaking from the perspective of someone who's been in an abusive relationship before, SOME of you need to shut the hell up! You have no idea what it's like to see love reflect terror in the mirror you're staring into that is your life...you should never judge someone and whatever situation they're dealing with...even Chris...because YOU don't KNOW. Again, i don't condone his behavior...i actually want to shank that high yella bastid myself....but it isn't my place to pass judgement...nor issue street justice...i surmise the demons have started haunting him already...that's enough torture if in fact one is truly remorseful.

The more i type, the more my blood boils....i'm truly ashamed of the society we live in where this type of exposure has become acceptable. fuck that. i don't accept it. And TMZ, you are officially on timeout.

carry on....

:: tings no run we(random post of randomness) ::

I think it's safe to think....if more people did it, there would be a lot less drama in the world...but overstand that the world will always have drama...and that's another thing...people who say they're drama free are the absolute CATALYST'S at creating drama...i don't believe that exists...the capability of being drama free...because even when you're not looking for it, the shit finds you...need i point to our recent example of Chris and Rihanna fiasco....


and ANOTHER damn thing...i'm tired of people talking about THAT shit...we have a fledgling economy...mofo's changing their mind about holding positions in office at the last minute trying to make the brother from another mother look even more unqualified...folks STILL dying in Darfur and ya'll are blogging day in and day out about some shit that won't matter 2 weeks from now...let the record reflect i am no advocate of violence in any regard but scot dammit if ya'll don't chat and keep it pushing on this SUBJECT so help me i will send 2 girls and 1 cup your way!

sweet lamb's wool jesus....i've gotten all out of place with the original thought of this entry...but then maybe not because it is supposed to be out of order and all over the place....scatterbrained-ness is where i thrive pimpin...fukk your inside the line coloring ass!

carry on....

>:: Snorg tees love ::<

copped that hoodie from them. don't say i don't put ya'll up on nothing. as you were.

>:: thoughts all every where :: <

i know you're watching me....ain't cha baby? *winks* =)

I don't move by emotion any more. I move by thought. thus the moniker "phreethoughts". It also serves it's duality in the name of my company. Yeah you probably haven't heard of me...oh but you will...as long as I breathe my shit WILL jump off. Here's the thing I've been battling with for quite some time....I don't like the spotlight. I'd rather be the man behind the curtain nah'mean? My plan was to sell myself and then sell my success to the workers to become the boss. Just like any street dream, apply it to corporate life.

I don't much believe in religion but I know there is a God...She sees me...and i believe She places people in my life for good reason. I spoke with a gentleman tonight who promises to be a valuable asset. I'm about to make moves...try to keep up with me will ya?!?!

as you all were.

>:: energy is energy ::<

i'm up at this ungodly hour(and not out drinking and partying...2 points for me thankyouvermuch!)...and you know what's on my mind? Well my stans, i'm thinking about crushes....those fleeting moments in time when you become infatuated with someone or someTHING.....they/it caught your attention and has you stuck trying to figure them or it out...while they, perhaps aloof or knowingly, float around as normal.

meh. -_-

I'm currently infatuated with a phree soul here in the city....she hasn't a clue...although sometimes i think she does and just willingly ignores me. x_x I know i won't tell her because it's just...random...and though my mind has the tendency to wander toward random things, i'm not in the business of putting myself out there like "yo you're the SHIT to me!" (or some other jargon i deem suave but sounds stupid as hell).

I'm hating experiencing this at 28 years old.....crushes should have an age limit...or maybe i'm at the age where it's a "jones". well....i don't hate it i just know i can't/won't act on it....but alas, she is FINE....mind especially....body is a plus but who cares about that shit.

so yeah...i think i'll write her a poem...keep it in my stash to remember when she once had my nose open....and never knew...

as you all were.

>:: Yum (unfinished poem # 55334324)

This poem had SO much potential...alas it didn't go past this...but here's a teaser for my Stans. enjoy!

cumulus clouds...or grey skies
i could insert my inner wisdom into the spectrum of your prism and become your prisoner...
i have enveloped you in dreams...tasted the nectar of Yemaya and can't bear lavishing in a non-goddess' presence...
i evisioned circular motions through oceans with 4 corner walls bursting with flavor and the drip of said drops on my eyelids...
sliding toward the corners of my mouth...splashing toward my tongue...i inhale with my lips...and get drunk off of the vocal spasms of your pleasure...

>:: iSpeak ::<

I watched some of the coverage yesterday of the inaugration. I'd nearly slept the entire morning away when i was awakened to the words "you're missing history". I haven't quite figured out what i feel about this process...i know there's a lot of pomp and circumstance involved and rightfully so....this is REAL.

I don't see Obama as the second coming though...i know he has a road less traveled because it's littered with more resistance now than ever. Clearly, the country is in disarray and I hope people don't expect him to make miracles happen in 1 year. It took us 8 years to get to this position...10 if you count Clinton's goof with that NAFTA shit.

Anyway, I couldn't have beamed with more pride when I saw Obama being sworn in...it was, at best, surreal. I felt at any point I'd snap out of this dream like state to a reality that it never happened....and contemplate that for a moment....what if you woke up and found that this was a joke? That's my mind drifting though....but really think about that...pretty scary eh? Well that's exactly what's happened the last 8 years...a JOKE.

What i ask and what every American should be asking is that everyone stay calm and remember that there's a long road ahead and truly will take all of us working TOGETHER to fix this mess. We all will have to make sure these people we elected work for us and not the other way around. A representative is just that. So chin checks will be in order when necessary.

As you all were.

>:: case of the sickies ::<

The midwest is going to be the death of me....I've never had a cold where i'm blowing BLOOD out of my damn nose(in all fairness, streaks of blood)....what the shit is going on with my health yo?

So i hate going to the doctor...so naturally i'm webmd-ing my symptoms...according to that site, i either have bronchitis or sinus-itis (however it's spelled, ya'll know what i mean). UGH! I don't get sick back to back like that! I just had a damn cold in December!

If any one has a suggestion on how i should treat this, i welcome them with open arms. Or if you want to give me a swift kick in the ass to go to the doctor, i welcome that as well...just not with open arms.

as you all were.

>:: I Stan for Michelle Obama ::<

>:: allow me to reintroduce myself ::<

At this junction in life, no one should be surprised at what Bush says...but it really befuddles me that this man thinks the US is respected abroad. Are you paying attention? America is probably MORE hated now than it has ever been in the entire time i've been walking this good earth. Delusion is such a sad and tragic stage in life.

Anyway, i'm still recovering from the reality that there are people out there who still think that 9/11 was an OUTSIDE job. i'll pause for your reaction...

2009 is supposed to be a year of change....but don't expect it to happen over night. Just like with weight loss....even those magic pills can't help you lose what took you 10 years or however long to put on your body overnight. Progress takes time. Progression takes due diligence too.

I don't care that the Giants or San Diego lost. I'm a Saints fan dammit. And as stated before, i put up with them and all their shitty glory.

I LOVE to give women compliments...however my sexual orientation doesn't allow me to do that as often as i'd like without someONE thinking there is more to it than what is being said...i hate that I even have to TYPE that shit in '09. Hell for that matter, i'll even give a dude a compliment....you know like "nice shirt" or something. =)

Take me in moderation....once i get this blog back to jumping, you will become addicted. Trust me.

As you all were.

Iraq Veteran Speaks Out On War Crimes

Testimony from a former U.S. Army Ranger Jessie Macbeth, a Former Army Ranger and Iraq War Veteran Tells All This 20 minute interview will change how you view the U.S. occupation of Iraq forever. I cannot possibly recommend this more highly. An Iraq war veteran tells of atrocities he and other fellow-soldiers committed reguarly while in Iraq. I have never seen this level of honesty from a U.S. soldier who directly participated in the slaughtering of Iraqis. Excerpts: "When we were doing the night raids in the houses, we would pull people out and have them all on their knees and zip-tied. We would ask the man of the house questions. If he didn't answer the way we liked, we would shoot his youngest kid in the head. We would keep going, this was our interrogation. He could be innocent. He could be just an average Joe trying to support his family. If he didn't give us a satisfactory answer, we'd start killing off his family until he told us something. If he didn't know anything, I guess he was SOL." and "For not speaking out, I feel like I'm betraying my battle-buddies that died." Watch the video here. Produced by Pepperspray Productions

:: North Korea ::

it's been a minute since yours truly has gotten on the political standpoint but feel me now...
What's good with this country? Every few years, they threaten nuclear "testing" like a bad child crying out for attention doing random shit just to get it...I mean, how often do you actually give two shits about this country beyond when you hear that they're planning to do some nuclear something and aim it at the U.S.?
i propose this letter to them from yours truly...

Dear Kim Jong, leader with Napoleon complex:

We regret to inform you that this crying wolf of yours will only be met with constant disregard for your nation and the people living within those borders. Furthermore, the American people know nothing about you beyond the tirades that you've gone on(whose pissing you off over there? South Korea ) in recent years against your own people, much like our good government here but that is neither here nor there. In case you haven't noticed, THE U.S. GOVERNMENT JUST DON'T GIVE A FUKK! I'm a citizen here and i can tell you first hand that they care nothing about sacrificing the lives of innocent people as they have done in the past and recently. With that being said, stop the threats unless you plan to do it. We're really getting tired of it...like for real man...stop.. If you want, i can send you a couple more movies that i hear you like collecting and perhaps that will occupy your time with less pressing thoughts such as writing a check your azz couldn't cash. Ask yourself, what would Jesus, Buddha, and whomever else people are serving these days do?

sincerely,

one who moves silently

P.S. That hair? unh uh...UNH UH!

:: the opening pitch... ::

i have quite a few blogs all over the net...so much so that i'm starting to have a hard time remembering where i may have started some of them...but i came here by way of browsing another page on here which i found by randomnly browsing someone ELSE'S page on myspace...it appears i may run into intellects on here...if nothing more, i definately will get into some thought provoking debates, which i love...even if we don't agree you've made me think and that's always the point...at least for me...and of course the mixing of pseudo-intellects...should be an interesting experience...and oh yeah, that random site that i randomnly ran across on here was "blackademic"...i'm still not done reading it but i figured i'd try to read it prior to making any comments on her site...so far...so good...and i also joined so i wouldn't have to keep anonymously viewing other peoples pages on here...i don't know why, but that makes me feel sort of stalkerish....give me a minute...i'll be blogging about all things that catch my eye or ear soon...

as you all were...