>:: thoughts all every where :: <

i know you're watching me....ain't cha baby? *winks* =)

I don't move by emotion any more. I move by thought. thus the moniker "phreethoughts". It also serves it's duality in the name of my company. Yeah you probably haven't heard of me...oh but you will...as long as I breathe my shit WILL jump off. Here's the thing I've been battling with for quite some time....I don't like the spotlight. I'd rather be the man behind the curtain nah'mean? My plan was to sell myself and then sell my success to the workers to become the boss. Just like any street dream, apply it to corporate life.

I don't much believe in religion but I know there is a God...She sees me...and i believe She places people in my life for good reason. I spoke with a gentleman tonight who promises to be a valuable asset. I'm about to make moves...try to keep up with me will ya?!?!

as you all were.

>:: energy is energy ::<

i'm up at this ungodly hour(and not out drinking and partying...2 points for me thankyouvermuch!)...and you know what's on my mind? Well my stans, i'm thinking about crushes....those fleeting moments in time when you become infatuated with someone or someTHING.....they/it caught your attention and has you stuck trying to figure them or it out...while they, perhaps aloof or knowingly, float around as normal.

meh. -_-

I'm currently infatuated with a phree soul here in the city....she hasn't a clue...although sometimes i think she does and just willingly ignores me. x_x I know i won't tell her because it's just...random...and though my mind has the tendency to wander toward random things, i'm not in the business of putting myself out there like "yo you're the SHIT to me!" (or some other jargon i deem suave but sounds stupid as hell).

I'm hating experiencing this at 28 years old.....crushes should have an age limit...or maybe i'm at the age where it's a "jones". well....i don't hate it i just know i can't/won't act on it....but alas, she is FINE....mind especially....body is a plus but who cares about that shit.

so yeah...i think i'll write her a poem...keep it in my stash to remember when she once had my nose open....and never knew...

as you all were.

>:: Yum (unfinished poem # 55334324)

This poem had SO much potential...alas it didn't go past this...but here's a teaser for my Stans. enjoy!

cumulus clouds...or grey skies
i could insert my inner wisdom into the spectrum of your prism and become your prisoner...
i have enveloped you in dreams...tasted the nectar of Yemaya and can't bear lavishing in a non-goddess' presence...
i evisioned circular motions through oceans with 4 corner walls bursting with flavor and the drip of said drops on my eyelids...
sliding toward the corners of my mouth...splashing toward my tongue...i inhale with my lips...and get drunk off of the vocal spasms of your pleasure...

>:: iSpeak ::<

I watched some of the coverage yesterday of the inaugration. I'd nearly slept the entire morning away when i was awakened to the words "you're missing history". I haven't quite figured out what i feel about this process...i know there's a lot of pomp and circumstance involved and rightfully so....this is REAL.

I don't see Obama as the second coming though...i know he has a road less traveled because it's littered with more resistance now than ever. Clearly, the country is in disarray and I hope people don't expect him to make miracles happen in 1 year. It took us 8 years to get to this position...10 if you count Clinton's goof with that NAFTA shit.

Anyway, I couldn't have beamed with more pride when I saw Obama being sworn in...it was, at best, surreal. I felt at any point I'd snap out of this dream like state to a reality that it never happened....and contemplate that for a moment....what if you woke up and found that this was a joke? That's my mind drifting though....but really think about that...pretty scary eh? Well that's exactly what's happened the last 8 years...a JOKE.

What i ask and what every American should be asking is that everyone stay calm and remember that there's a long road ahead and truly will take all of us working TOGETHER to fix this mess. We all will have to make sure these people we elected work for us and not the other way around. A representative is just that. So chin checks will be in order when necessary.

As you all were.

>:: case of the sickies ::<

The midwest is going to be the death of me....I've never had a cold where i'm blowing BLOOD out of my damn nose(in all fairness, streaks of blood)....what the shit is going on with my health yo?

So i hate going to the doctor...so naturally i'm webmd-ing my symptoms...according to that site, i either have bronchitis or sinus-itis (however it's spelled, ya'll know what i mean). UGH! I don't get sick back to back like that! I just had a damn cold in December!

If any one has a suggestion on how i should treat this, i welcome them with open arms. Or if you want to give me a swift kick in the ass to go to the doctor, i welcome that as well...just not with open arms.

as you all were.

>:: I Stan for Michelle Obama ::<

>:: allow me to reintroduce myself ::<

At this junction in life, no one should be surprised at what Bush says...but it really befuddles me that this man thinks the US is respected abroad. Are you paying attention? America is probably MORE hated now than it has ever been in the entire time i've been walking this good earth. Delusion is such a sad and tragic stage in life.

Anyway, i'm still recovering from the reality that there are people out there who still think that 9/11 was an OUTSIDE job. i'll pause for your reaction...

2009 is supposed to be a year of change....but don't expect it to happen over night. Just like with weight loss....even those magic pills can't help you lose what took you 10 years or however long to put on your body overnight. Progress takes time. Progression takes due diligence too.

I don't care that the Giants or San Diego lost. I'm a Saints fan dammit. And as stated before, i put up with them and all their shitty glory.

I LOVE to give women compliments...however my sexual orientation doesn't allow me to do that as often as i'd like without someONE thinking there is more to it than what is being said...i hate that I even have to TYPE that shit in '09. Hell for that matter, i'll even give a dude a compliment....you know like "nice shirt" or something. =)

Take me in moderation....once i get this blog back to jumping, you will become addicted. Trust me.

As you all were.