You know a person has been called out on their shullbit when they go into hiding. The most explicit form of cowardice. I found your lies and now you want to hide? Now you shirking your responsibility in all of this?
I once read a blog entry from a young woman that i never met who went through the same EXACT thing that i am going through right now. I remember these words over everything i read in that entry: "after all i've done for you, this is how you do me?".
This is borderline sad. And i have never been more frustrated and angry with myself than i am now. And everything in me wants to get revenge. And i am very capable of doing it in silent fashion...but the small logical part of me that is being drowned out by all the voices of vengeance is saying "peace be still.". Alright then. I'm listening. Whether or not i adhere to that mantra...i cannot say right now. Because everybody is mad...and with so much going on in the world in only takes a finger snap to get swift justice.
I don't know, good people that are reading this...the space i am in mentally is not healthy. If i do not disconnect soon, i will act on my pain. I know me. So i'm shutting everything down for a awhile. Retreating to the country. This is getting out of hand. Really.
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