>:: a robust realization ::<

in most of my quiet moments, i reflect....like any natural hueman being...without the distraction of what's going in on the world...and focus more on what's going on in my world....there is turmoil...but it is only inner....i know this is the stage where i destroy and rebuild...and this time i'm a bit more sure of what to destroy...often times when you are seeking yourself, as i put it, you chop the good parts out because they've been intertwined with so much MESS....everyday is a day that i'm learning to love what it is about me that makes others smile and even venture to this here blog of mine...its a kind gesture that says "hey, you're interesting"...well maybe that is loosely interpreted but you all get the gist....

i'll recover me i'm sure....no one did anything to get me to this place but me....and i have the womanistic sense to gather every ounce of wisdom i've been given over the last few years of my life to try and turn it all around...it's going to hurt....no change or Seppuku (not THAT extreme but it flowed with the entry LOL) can go unmeasured in the volume of pain radiating from every body part....you have to take a good hard look at yourself and say i really do need to change...some days are harder to get out of the bed and face myself...and face reality....but you should all know something about me as well that's really important.....

.....i have always...and will ALWAYS....continue to be...

a WARRIOR.

carry on.